I dunno what to say now... Talked to her last night... She's confused I think... She doesn't know what she's doing. She thought I wasn't interested anymore. I shouldn't have told her what I felt... Adding to the confusion. Stupid me. Matt told me to trust God... I think I will... Something good is coming... Not by my own strength. Not with my own effort... I already did too much. Just hafta pray for her. Need to pray for myself too... Going to the airport soon. Need to spend sometime alone.

Matt suggested that I give her the URL for this blog... Let her know how I really feel. I don't know about that. I think I better not do anything without God again. It'll only get worse if I do. I think I might leave her alone for quite a while. Maybe she needs to learn by herself. Maybe God wants her to learn something and I keep interrupting. I dunno...

::: Lyric of the Day :::
You'll bruise their hearts, child.
You'll live their lives?
You'll fill their shoes, child?
You'll still be right?
You'll speak your words, child.
You're still naive.
You'll tell your lies, child.
They'll still believe.

All you've ever said about them, it was never right.
Has all you've learned here been forgotten? You're the perfect light?
Don't strain your head, child, thinking for them.
Don't place the blame, child. Your time will come.